All I want is to win the lottery...

I suppose it is quite a lot to ask.

I don't want to win millions (of course I wouldn't say no if I did) I just want enough to be able to buy my own house and not have to worry about having the expense of rent every month. To be able to support my children without relying on anyone else.

I want to be able to think about living with my boyfriend without then thinking to myself that we are never going to be able to afford to live together.

I woke up this morning and rolled over to snuggle up to my boyfriend and it was one of the mornings he wasn't there. I hate these mornings where it comes as a shock to find he isn't there, first I feel all confused and then when I realise he stayed at home, I just want to cry.

I know we will get there eventually, it just sometimes seems like such a long way off. I suppose I need to take my darlings advice and have a PMA (positive mental attitude) hehe x